9/26/2007

- have decided to go ahead... -

whoops ok i had one post in the beginning of the month and now i have another near the end of the month wahaha. alrite im not goin to swear again that i'll update more often, perhaps in my dictionary, 'often' meant twice a month wahaha.

anyhowz, things have been quite hectic and so on. its the recess week, nonetheless it doesnt seem so lar. apparently i have been in school like monday and i foresee myself camping in school again on thurs and fri. i guess what is topping my load is my essay, arghhh..

this time round, i literally have no idea how would i approach my essay. i went a big round doin that though. well, at least an idea was clearly sort out. nonetheless i don understand how and why have i been so stressed over this particular essay. kinda messed up by it. as in i shouted at every1 that's in my way, my uncleS my cousinS and my mom... lol but glad they understand.

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actually whats so pressurizing is due to my night time taken up by a friend of mine. instead of having to complete work at home, i got to go over to her place and stay with her at night which is like half of my time being taken up for no rhyme or reason. pretty inconstructive ~bleah.

anyhowz jus see how things go, hopefully it will turn out in a way that harms no party. grr...

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at times i feel that i have to be less compromising to surrounding ppl. not that im a saint like jolene or what. but to me its not nice to reject, not so nice to tell ppl how i actually felt so on and so forth. nonetheless, recently though pretty upset about it, i made a choice for myself.

was pretty looking forward towards the work and play trip in US, seriously wasnt keen at all until one of my friend enticed it. was seriously thinking about it, 'hey, i have not much memory being a student all these years, have been working and studying, not even a time for myself as a student. this prob would be a once in a life time trip and experience.'

then i registered in some themepark in NYC, erm... yes NYC. haha. erm... ah hua, jolene... i know what u are thinking haha NYC. don't worry i have long gotten over that shit so yea.

however due to some constraints things did not turn out the way that was anticipated. was seriously upset and u know that kinda rubbish feelings lar. but, seriously i thought to myself i'm rather an asshole if i really held grudges or grumble over it.

first, noone had knife or some parang over ur neck and forced me to sign up.
second, she is too nice a person to have grudge against. seriously... its like she's an angel lar then im like the pai kia haha.
third, should have thought for the worse outcome if things go wrong.
fourth, it's partly my fault for not thinking over the situation carefully. and stop compromising ppl. time to do something because i want to and for myself.

so i decided just to go ahead with it. and changed the designation to florida, orlando instead of NYC. and after sorting things out. i felt rather proud of myself though wahaha.

yup. im goin over all alone. jus hope that my room mate will not be too bad lar. haha. quite particular about cleanliness though i may not be that hygienic or what. but yea lar i cant stand the ang mo style. wearing shoes all over ARGHH...

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anyhowz, gimme all ur blessings friends~ haha. aightz back to essay. PUI~

...and so the story continues...

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