8/08/2007

- TROUBLED, FRIENDS, SELD-IMPROVEMENT -

well, thesedays i have been thinking alot. alot.. seriously alot. alot of things had happened, alot of things had zoomed passed. all in a mist.

within all those, i found that i really have a problem with my character and myself. bear with me pals, im doing a confession lol.

since 2 years back i have been relying on this friend of mine whom i really look up to. i relied on her for everythin literally every little thing such as assurance and so forth. recently, our gap widened, and i guess the problem lies with me.

sigh... if only i were a little more matured in my thinkin. nonetheless, i guess there will be a point in time when things start freezing and friendship starts to stagnentized or what. probably i care too much or yearned too much for attention. i wanna be cared for and loved. all along i thought i was independent enough, but i guess im wrong. i wasnt at all.

so now bit by bit im recovering my negatives and trying to correct em slowly, and i hope day by day i could become a better person... somehow.

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im really one who cannot take comments. somehow i guess that gets me to no where. sigh... perhaps i should really stop relying on her and stand on my two feet. i gotta be more independent eh?

oh manz... why am i gettin all so emo~ grr@#$%& that isnt like me tho! haha

where is the wynn that used to be?! grrr

...and so the story continues...

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