5/16/2007

- Demoralised -

today went to teach a student who had been givin problems. today as usual she did not disappoint me. she threw her temper at me again. on top of that threw her books on the floor and hit her piano keyboard. or should i say she HAMMERED it. pedal the pedal like a speed boat. and i told her mom that she better had the piano checked soon.

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i complained loads to her mom, exploding everythin. she really reached my max... i was so agitated that i almost tear while talkin to her mom. i said: ' mrs chan, i donno what happen to your daughter this year, but im really suffocated till i donno what to do with her.' and seriously im that stress.

things have worsen this year she wasnt that bad last year, though still... this year is worse till im really at my wits. i donno what to do with her. im really exhuasted with all my ways of handling the child. hard way, soft way, half raw way whatever damn ways i tried, have no impact on her.

im really doubtin my capability to teach or continue teaching. i know i don make a good piano teacher, but i thought i tried. i go in all ways to do my students good, but somehow things never get done.

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then on top of the mentioned case i literally hurt my student's ego without knowing. i thought she is pretty close to me so im always like clowning around with her so im not careful with my words.

thinking that she wouldnt take it to heart. so i was like joking around,'oei, u have no talent in music lar. forget about it.'

'oei why u so dumb, donno how to count'

who knows the damn hell she took it all for real man. she was tellin me that she almost wanted to give up today. im like... gosh i din even remember mentionin such things to her.

lol. im really a goner rite?

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well before today i really enjoyed myself with Sissy and a friend of mine, Ann. went shopping like a tai tai. was rather fun lar, there was no need to worry about anythin.

today was bad. somehow... 今キモチがすごく悪いん、どうしたの。。。全然わからない。　誰か。。。助けてくれ！

...and so the story continues...

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